Happy New Year everyone! The very fact that your reading this means that not only “you” but “I” managed to get through the holidays! Yes its a little past New Years but everything in my world goes at a slower pace! It’s a new year and I’m looking forward to renewed health and wellness for all of us that are suffering from chronic pain. For me personally it’s been a challenging few months battling a few symptoms, that lately seem to be in a constant state of flare. However it doesn’t change how I approach this illness, and I continue to remain optimistic and hopeful. At the same time I’m feeling the need to take a time out and rest my weary body.
In starting out the year I need to refocus and get back to basics which is looking at myself, and to know that the single most effective way to beat this illness is held within me. I’ve been digging deep within myself lately asking myself how I’ve been able to get as far as I have in this battle against CRPS. When things have seemed impossible they’ve been made possible and to that I need to give credit to God for being there through it all. My brain starts to hurt when I think of the number of times when things were too tough to handle, or when the roadblocks I faced seemed next to impossible to get past. Every time though with strength, determination, and a positive attitude I manage to get through whatever situation I’ve faced. Once again I have to give credit to God for giving me all of those things.
Attitude and how we approach our illness is huge, and often I think we can find opportunity to do a much better job at this. I want to be really careful in how I word things because my intention is to make us think about how we approach our illness. Some things are not in our control and I realize that! So there are variables that of course are going to affect how we think, approach, or even act on our diagnosis. That being said I always think there’s room for improving. So what I’m saying is look within your own situation and really ask yourself is there anything you can do differently, or change about your attitude or how you handle your illness. Its a really tough question because this is where some of those variables come into play. You may have had bad experiences with physicians or family members that just don’t understand what your going through. So my question to you would be this. Is there an opportunity to have grace or forgiveness in that situation? Or are you holding on to anger and resentment towards them? I use these two examples because these would be the two that most of us can most easily relate to.
Both these areas do hold opportunity for use to change our attitude, and although it might not be very easy it might just make walking through your journey a little easier! We get so caught up in some of the things that are out of our control that it stops us from seeing that some of the answers are right there within us. Not to mention that it can cause a huge shift in our attitude! That doctor who’s working really hard to help us in a really crappy situation isn’t responsible for us being sick. Yet often anger and frustration often gets directed towards them just because they can’t provide us every answer “you” or “I” want. Even when we come up against that physician or specialist that doesn’t know about our illness or doesn’t treat us the way we deserve to be treated. There’s an opportunity right there in how we deal with the situation that may arise as a result! Try to look at things from a different perspective because maybe just maybe some of the answers aren’t as cut and dry for them as they may seem for us. We get so desperate for answers however that we lose perspective of that because we start letting our emotions take over.
Believe me I get it! All I’m really trying to say is that sometimes we miss what’s right there inside of us. We hold this incredible amount of power within ourselves to change the entire outlook of our diagnosis. Along with changing how we manage every day life within our illness. Do you get what I’m trying to say? The question is this! Are you willing look within yourself to find it?
Last night was one of those typical nights where you toss and turn trying not to lose your mind! With pain levels spiking because of a flare up there wasn’t a whole lot to do but do what I do every night in praying that the pain eases. Nights like last night are typical of someone who deals with CRPS, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Autoimmune Disorders, or any other chronic pain condition for that matter. The last thing I wanted to do today besides wanting to crawl into a corner and rock in the fetal position, was tackle the very simple task of every day life! Most of you get up you have a cup of coffee and then you go about your day. For me I wake up take twenty pills to ease my pain and have to carefully plan what I can and can’t do, or what will expend to much energy causing me more pain!
I’m passionate about standing up for my fellow survivors who live with chronic pain! So the waters I’m about to enter today are solely my own views and nobody but mine! Just want to make it clear so that there are no misunderstandings. I’m writing this from my view as the chronically ill patient! Over the last little while the whole opioid crisis has been drawing a lot of attention and I just want to express my opinion of this whole issue. Governments are wanting to take opioids away from chronic pain sufferers and it would be a disaster waiting to happen.
There is a tremendous amount of fear and anger out there in the chronic pain world because of what I will refer to as “the crisis” in this article. I along with others don’t take them out of choice but out of necessity to manage and have the quality of life that I do. Yet some people would be quick to label me as an addict! I do my best to take low dosages and use alternate methods to manage my pain where possible but the reality is that not all alternate methods will work to relieve my pain.
These in my opinion are not the actions of someone who is looking to abuse medications. If I could get rid of my medication and the pain today then I would! Believe me when I say ten years of pain has been long enough! I’m not looking to take the next pill or the other 20 others I have to take throughout the day!
Patients are getting passed from physician to physician in looking for treatment and diagnosis. This makes the patients look as if they are just bouncing from doctor to get the next Rx or get their next fix! As a patient advocate and someone who’s been through the revolving door of doctors nothing upsets me more than to see us being viewed in this way! Why is this happening? Ask anyone suffering from chronic pain and they’ll tell you their desperate for answers and treatment. I think we need to focus more on research for cures and alternate treatments!
As a patient with an illness that has little known about it and no cure in site what are my options? Not many! Sure this is where lots of physicians get stuck, and whip out the prescription pad saying “here try this but I can’t help you any further” leaving the patient with no other choice but to source another physician. I’m lucky enough to have a team of doctors who don’t do this and carefully monitor my medications and try where possible to decrease if they can. They see the need to balance the use of opioids in order to control the pain in conjunction with sourcing other methods of pain control. I’m lucky that for the most part this allows me to function throughout the day!
Taking opioids away from the patient that is suffering from chronic pain and is chronically ill in my opinion will only make “the crisis” worse and cause more patients to become desperate with even fewer choices! Thus leading to higher rates of suicide. If we can come up with cures and treatments then hopefully chronic pain patients shouldn’t have to rely on these medications as much. Not giving me any voice however doesn’t help to solve the problem. The patient needs to be a part of the overall solution!
I promised myself yesterday that I wouldn’t let weeks go bye before I put up another post! Look at me! I’m trying to get back into my writing but with two busy kids and living a chronic life it’s not the easiest thing to do in this season of my life. It’s hard to believe but I’ve been writing this blog now for seven years! It seems like just yesterday that I was writing from a place of uncertainty when I was first diagnosed. Without a doubt the last ten years has been filled with some pretty emotional stories! This last few weeks has brought all those emotions flooding back! On Nov. 2 when I hosted CRPS Awareness Day I saw faces in the auditorium that almost felt as if they were a reflection of mine back when I was diagnosed. I could see the anger and the fear in some of the patients eyes, and I could hear uncertainty in their voices as they spoke. As I stood in front of those patients I reminded them that “your going to get through this” as hard as it might be right now! I told them not to give up hope!
As I spoke with various people diagnosed with CRPS throughout the day, one of the things that came up over and over was how hard their diagnosis has been on the family as a whole. An illness like CRPS has a huge impact on how the family functions and it adds even more stress to your relationships. Sometimes we don’t stop for a minute to think about how chronic illness affects them. I have a wife who has sits back and watches every day play out in front of her with there being very little she can do to help me. What support groups are there for her? None! My children being kids would like nothing more than to be able to run up to dad in the morning and jump on me or do the usual things they do with their parents. They can’t! Who explains to the child why all of this has to be this way? The parents! Fortunately God has given a lot of wisdom and understanding to manage all of this.
Family life is a bit different when your living a chronic life, and has taught me to how to have grace for others in the family who have to deal with me being ill. God helps us navigate our way through it as a family. Most of the time we talk out loud about challenges we face and work on how we can make things better. It’s not to say that things are easy all the time because they aren’t. Often there are times of misunderstanding and it takes a whole lot of listening and explaining of things to each other in order to work through the challenges we face. Now I don’t want to paint a negative picture of what family life is like because if anything in a lot of ways this illness has made our family stronger. I’m just saying that an illness like CRPS changes how you go about every day life. On the days that my wife is having a tough day I try to be there just as she tries to be there for me on my bad days! Am I perfect and there for her on every one of those days? Not at all! This is what I’m talking about in that it isn’t easy, that there’s a lot of give and take in order to support one another in the ways that we need to! There are a lot of days where I have to humble myself to tell my kids “sorry that daddy was a grouch today, the pain got the best of me” in order to help them understand why dad is acting the way that he does!
Its not easy to explain every aspect of how family life changes with a chronic illness because it can vary so much from family to family. What you really need to know though is that it affects the interactions and relationships between family members! There are lots of days that I want to blame my illness for everything and how its affected our family but what good would that do. What I really need to do is focus on making those relationships and interactions the best I can within the peramiters of my illness. Fostering strong relationships and interacting can be tougher however and takes a bit more effort when your dealing with an illness like this. So as a family we’ve had to put our heads together to figure out the best way to do that! We have relied heavily on asking God for wisdom on how to handle this.
So unless there is a cure for CRPS then trying to figure out how to manage my illness with having a great family life will always be a balancing act! So it means being aware of how it can affect our family and not allowing it to have a negative affect on us. We need to keep working hard and to see only the positives of how it has actually brought us closer together as a family.
Its been a rough go lately dealing with extra pain but somehow I manage to keep moving forward! A few weeks ago I traveled down to Huntington Beach to attend the Global Genes Rare Disease Summit. The stress of the travel was hard on my body and although I had to fight a lot of extra pain it was well worth it. There’s a trade off that comes with living a chronic life and I know there are others of you out there that understand what I’m talking about. Its all a part of me moving forward with my life and not allowing your illness to take all control!
I arrived home from the Summit changed but in a really good way. When your sitting beside a person who is one of only five people in the U.S. that has a rare form of cancer things are suddenly put into perspective. There was unique story after unique story each one impacting me in a different way. It was impossible to take away just one thing! If I felt inspired to do something about CRPS before, I left feeling as if I had to do all that much more! When I looked at the work that some people had been doing to raise awareness for their particular illnesses, I had to ask myself what am I really doing? At the end of the weekend we all went back home having gained 500 friends and a wealth of knowledge to take back to our communities.
I really feel I was able to make some strong connections and tap into some resources that will be useful here in my own community and province. Although its hard at the best of times to battle on with chronic illness I believe God gives us an abundance of strength when we need it the most, never giving us more than we can handle. With that being said as I left the conference knowing that I needed to be stronger in my advocacy efforts I came to the conclusion that no matter what I face or take on, God will provide in every way I need Him to along the way. I don’t want to be that person who says “I can’t” just because the path in front of me looks too difficult. I need to remember that God is guiding this walk and that when I’m lacking clarity or vision that I’m to look towards Him.
As I prepare to have the first ever CRPS Awareness day here for the Province of Saskatchewan I can feel my legs begin to tremble just at the thought of having to put this one day event on. Some of the people coming to this event hold important positions within our community and even our province. So sometimes I question my qualifications or I tell myself I’m way out of my league when it comes to taking this on. However nothing could be further from the truth. My qualifications speak for themselves having lived this illness for the past ten years! I need push forward because I have a testimony within my story that might just help one person find the care they need, or cause one Dr. to stop and think about how they diagnose and treat a patient. It might even be that one person from our government who comes to the event and is impacted. Leading them to say that we need to work on policy and legislation. Let me be very clear! All I’m saying is that by standing still I won’t create change!
Fast forward two weeks because this post was suppose to be up already but there’s just been too much going on and not enough time to do everything! CRPS Awareness Day went ahead this week and was a huge success! I’m not going to lie when I say I was a little worried that I wasn’t going to fill seats for my key note speaker but we were at full capacity and I think a few people other than patients walked away better informed of what CRPS is. The next day I was asked to speak at another conference and share my story with a group from within our health district. As much as I was nervous about getting up and doing it I knew I had to because we need to spread the word and make people listen.
Its not about being qualified! Stories bring with them power to change, whether it be my story or your story or someone else’s! It’s only when we move that we make a difference but you have to ask yourself are you willing to do it? Through sharing my story and all that has been thrown at me over the last ten years it is my hope that I will make a difference. All I can do is hope and leave the rest up to God!
Have you ever had one of those moments where something really profound strikes you out of the blue. Today has been one of those days and it happened as I was listening to a podcast I listen to on a regular basis. The person speaking was sharing a story about a time he went whitewater rafting with his wife. The trip started as any rafting adventure would but as they headed down river the raft they were in flipped and all kinds of chaos ensued. He continues on with the story talking about how they came within inches of their death, as they struggled to reach shore safely. After getting to shore they managed to regroup and find the raft they had all been tossed out of.
After everything that had transpired the last thing he wanted to do was get back into that raft and continue down the river, yet it was the only option because there was no other way out. He offered to pay the guide to have a helicopter fly in and pick them up but the canyon walls were too steep! There was no other way of walking out until they got several miles down river, and they had to face some very nasty rapids called the Devil’s Mouth! Facing no other choice they got back into the raft and continued down river.
Through my ten years in living with CRPS I have come to realize that sometimes this illness doesn’t give you a choice of what you have to face. So instead of going around the storm we have to go right through the eye of it. It takes every ounce of strength to tell yourself that your going to be alright, and not to let fear make the decisions for you! It takes faith and believing in yourself even though you may not understand everything that is happening or might happen down the road. I like to compare it to a storm you see coming in the distance while sailing at sea. The storm is massive and all you can see are clouds and swirling seas as far as the eye can see. There isn’t time to change course and all you can do is head straight into it. At that point you face a choice! Either let the storm have its way with your boat and face drowning, or take on what’s coming at you with a strength and determination to come out the other side.
As I continued to listen to this podcast I could really identify with the things he was saying. A lot of what I’m walking through with my CRPS isn’t a choice but I “can” choose how I can take it on and not let it define who I am and what I do. There are some days where the illness that you face is going to kick you in the butt and your confidence will be taken down a few notches. You will experience things that scare you or cause you to question and doubt your abilities! The question is do you have faith and believe in yourself, and that you can steer your ship through the storm? Are you just sitting there in the corner of the wheelhouse huddled up hoping that you get through everything, or are you actively trying to navigate and steer that ship through?
This takes me back to the podcast I was listening to where the husband and wife were facing the daunting task of getting through the Devil’s Mouth rapids. It was either choose to believe in their ability to do what the guide was needing them to do to get through the rapids, or let the current push the raft into the rapids with disastrous results. The rudder had snapped off the raft in the first flip and it was up to them to steer the raft where it needed to go. Their mentality had to change and from that point forward they had to believe in themselves, and that they were capable of guiding this raft where it needed to go. After many fearful moments they eventually got through the rapids and into the calm part of the river. It took doing the things they never thought they could in order to get themselves to safety.
At the end of the podcast I took some time to reflect on how this story related to my life with chronic illness. In that time of reflection I came to a conclusion that I have two choices. One is that I can either choose to try and push the limits of my abilities and believe that I can make choices that will help me excel in life in spite of my illness. In other words can I navigate the storm and sail into calm waters. Or choice number two is do I let the powerful storm that’s swirling all around me knock me out of the ship and let the ocean swallow me up. So what I mean is do I let this illness consume me and change who I am and what I am able to do with the rest of my life. What choice are you going to make?
“Do not let your illness define who you are or what you can do”
“Believe in yourself”
Have you ever had one of those moments where you were listening to something like your favorite podcast and something really profound strikes you. Well today that happened as I was listening to one of mine and I wanted to share it with you. The person speaking was sharing a story about whitewater rafting with his wife. As they headed down river the raft they were in flipped and all kinds of chaos ensued. The story carries on talking about how they came within inches of death however they eventually managed to reach shore safely.
After everything that transpired the last thing he wanted to do was get back into that raft and continue down the river, yet it was the only option because there was no other way out. He offered to pay the guide to have a helicopter fly in and pick them up but the canyon walls were too steep! There was no other way of walking out until they got several miles down river, and they had to face some very nasty rapids called the Devil’s Mouth! Facing no other choice they got back into the raft and continued down river.
So often the only option one faces while fighting a chronic illness is to move straight forward and take on the illness in a battle that most of us would rather not fight. We see that difficult path that lies ahead, and it scares us to the extent that we don’t want to get back in the boat. It takes every ounce of strength to tell yourself that your going to be ok, and not to let the fear of the unknown make decisions for you! It takes faith and believing in yourself to continue your journey through whatever you might have to face. Sometimes those roadblocks that stand in our way are there for reasons unknown but you can’t let fear stop you from moving ahead. Sometimes you just have to say “I’m not going to let fear stop me from taking the next step” or from “accomplishing a goal”!
What I kept thinking through the entire podcast was I’m going through all of this for a reason! The pain, suffering, surgeries, and everything else CRPS throws at me! I know in my heart that I’m having to go through all of this so that something good will come out of all of it in the end. Even the ability to be able to speak into another person’s life is a powerful tool that I have been given. At the start of all of this I felt weak and beaten down. Now I feel as though I can take on anything life throws at me, regardless of what the challenge is. We don’t always see odvious things that are sittings right in front of us because we get too caught up in what’s happening in the now!
The message today is pretty simple sometimes we only have one choice and that’s to keep moving forward and face whatever lays ahead. You don’t know what might come out of your experiences!
Today I wanted to write something to encourage all of you out there who are struggling right now with your diagnosis. It might seem as if your world is spinning out of control and you might be asking yourself what do I do now! I want you to ask yourself a question. Are you happy? When I saw this video I said to myself its a perfect fit for what I want to talk about because it really says it all! Through all the pain, anger, and fear you need to get back up and fight. In some cases it isn’t going to be easy but with Gods guidance anything is possible! As the video says allow your heart to start beating again! Take baby steps one foot in front of the other and you can get there!
A word of advice! I really wanted to figure out where this journey was taking me but understand now I just needed to take the ride. I’ve turned that over to God and it’s brought peace in my life. I’m learning that bit by bit Gods greater plan is unfolding for my life. Sometimes the battle to get your mind and body back in the game, is tougher than facing the illness itself. When we get sick we just want everything to go back to the way it was. We tend to focus on the way things were and it can be really easy to become bitter and angry because we can’t have our old life back! Have you stopped to think for a minute that maybe this journey your on is for a reason. Maybe God has a plan for your life with bigger and better things but first you have to walk through some really tough things!
To often we listen to all those tiny voices that we hear in our head and it stops us from shifting the car from park into drive! I’m often reminded of all those episodes of the Flintstones I used to watch as a kid. If you don’t remember it then it was a cartoon set in the Stone Ages. The cars they drove in the cartoon were foot powered, and Barney and Fred would constantly forget to move their feet to get the car going. The running joke was why isn’t the car going anywhere. So the parallel I’m trying to make is that you have to keep your feet moving, if you want to stop yourself from getting stuck in the mud.
It might take some time to figure things out but don’t believe for a minute that your stuck where your at! You can’t be scared of running up against obstacles, or the times of frustration that you will run up against while on this journey. Look for the lesson from within each of those challenges, and if there is one learn and grow from them if you can. Some of those hard times that you face as you walk this journey might just change how you think about things from the past. Or it might open your eyes to new things that you never thought possible. Never in a million years did I see myself organizing a CRPS Awareness Day in our province and taking a roll in advocacy the way that I am. That being said I couldn’t feel better about what I am doing and the small roll I’m playing in trying to raise awareness. Advocacy has fueled a fire in me that wasn’t there before. Its fire to help people in whatever ways I can.
I’m not trying to tell you what to do in your situation. Absolutely not! I’m just trying to point out that there are things in my own life over the last ten years, that I’ve had to work on that I didn’t see coming. Ones that are taking me down a different road and as this happens I’m seeing happiness return. Do I know your situation? No! Can I relate to your situation? Yes! I do know that if I had stayed the way I was ten years ago then I wouldn’t be happy. I wouldn’t for a minute think of trying to tell another person what to do with there life and I never will. What I will do however is share my story with others and encourage. I really believe that when we support each other in these ways that we gain perspective. What you choose to do with that is your choice!
This is a simple message that I’ve given on more than one occasion but I think its important to keep giving. Its important because if I don’t remind myself personally every once in a while of these things, then I become stuck or my vision can become clouded. So I would hope that you see things in the same way. If your reading this today I hope it helps shed some light on questions you might have in your own journey!
Changes are in the works! Over the last couple of weeks I’ve been looking at how I can make some changes to this blog for the better! Don’t worry! If you read my blog on a regular basis the guts of the blog will be almost the same but I will be changing the layout and adding some other things to the site. There are a few reasons I want to make some changes but I also want to update its look. I know I’ve been saying that I’d do this for a while now but it just hasn’t been high on the to do list!
If you have any suggestions of what you would like to see on my site then please drop me a line at email@example.com and maybe I will consider it. I just really feel that change has to happen and that if I’m going to do my job as an advocate for CRPS and chronic pain then I have to change a few things around. In doing so it benefits you the reader. Not only will it keep you informed about this journey I am on but I will try to provide you with resources and other information as well.
Over the last year I have been surrounding myself with others with chronic illness who are firmly entrenched in advocacy and have an abundance of information at their fingertips. I’ve been sitting back wanting to make changes with my site but just didn’t know what those changes were going to look like. When people come to this blog I don’t want it to read like a medical journal. If a person is newly diagnosed I want them to not only relate to my illness and know that they are not alone, but know they can come to this site for information as well!
If you follow my blog because you want to follow my journey then your in luck because that will always be included in this site. Its why I started this site and will always be the building block of this site. I’m just looking at ways that I can freshen things up and widen the range of people that my site reaches. Its hard to believe that its been ten years since diagnosis and six years that I’ve been writing this blog. Over that time there have been over 400 posts put up expressing every emotion under the sun. It’s gone through all the different chapters that I’ve been through on this journey with CRPS!
Its been a long journey to this point and I feel as though a new chapter is starting. When I look back at those first posts I see a person who was scared and unsure of what lay down the road. Today even though I still fight intense pain and battle this disease, I’m filled with confidence and know that God has a plan and purpose in all this for my life. I feel as though that next chapter is starting and even though I’m still not sure about the contents that will make up that chapter I’m starting to move ahead anyway. I’m just standing in belief that God is going to show me what that content is going to be.
What I do know is that there has been this shift within me and I want that to start coming out more in my writing. It doesn’t mean that I won’t be real with what I write and tell you about how I’m struggling or feeling on any given day but it does mean that I want to shift how I write a bit as well. I’m still trying to figure all of this out and so please have a little bit of patience if every so often my posts seem a bit scattered. I guess what I really want to say is that if I want this blog to accurately reflect the journey that I’m on and that again requires some change.
When I started this blog back in 2010 my goal and focus at that time was really to just get my emotions out. It was a way for me to express how I was feeling at the time and was a creative outlet to help me. Today it has become so much more than that! Its become a way to share my story and hopefully help others navigate through their storms. Most of all though I want people to see that in ten years of dealing with this illness one person has been responsible for getting me through it. God!
It feels good today to sit down in front of this keyboard and write! Too often brain fog makes it really hard to put together a post as many of you know! With two young kids I also have to reserve some of the energy that I have for them. Lately however I’ve felt as if I really need to put some focus back on writing because I have a lot to say! So much has changed in the last few months and I really believe that we are on the verge of seeing some big changes happen in regards to CRPS!
Some exciting news on the front right here at home is that CRPS Awareness Day has been approved here in Saskatchewan and we are in the middle of working out details for the event that will take place here in Regina, SK on Nov.2, 2016! This is big news because for the first time those of us suffering from CRPS will be heard by dignitaries from within the government and medical communities. So keep coming back as I will be posting about things as we confirm plans! The goal in all this is to raise awareness and make people understand that we need resources and research to help those of us in need.
It isn’t often that I can say I feel good because most days are a struggle to get through. Ten years has had its toll on my body but like a Timex watch I keep ticking! Today I have to say that I feel alright and like I can take on most of the challenges put in front of me. For that I thank God! Without his guidance through all of this I wouldn’t have the strength or energy to keep going. When I started planning out today’s post I just kept hearing that it needed to be one that struck a cord with people! So this is the point at which you can either stop reading or carry on reading.
It isn’t often that I preach but today that’s exactly what I’m going to do. In ten years of dealing with CRPS numerous times I have needed Gods help and not often enough do I talk about how important He is in all of this. I get asked almost daily “how do you do it” or “what gets you through every day”. God gets me through every day! Whatever my concern I always rely on God because I don’t have any doubt in my mind that He will provide in whatever way I need Him to.
I don’t need to get into all the specifics that I’ve had to go through as I’ve walked through this journey. What I will say is this! Several times that I have faced adversity I have felt overwhelmed and alone. Sure I have family and friends supporting me but what I mean is that I felt alone in taking on this beast called CRPS. Family and friends can only offer so much support. My mind was being bombarded with questions that I quite simply didn’t have the answers to nor did anyone else! When I started asking God to help me with all the fear and questions, things started to change inside of me. Bottom line is that I got answers because I trusted Him for those answers. You just have to trust and believe that He will be there.
Psalm 46:1 “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble”
The single most important person in my life before anyone else is God. I stand by that and always will. Am I going to tell you that you need God in your life? Yes but I can’t be the person who makes that decision for you. I can share with you the things that He’s done in my life, that have changed and shaped me into who I am today. I might still be sick with my CRPS and look physically broken on the outside. However on the inside there is this strength and determination that has replaced the fear and uncertainty that used to exist. That is what God can do for you if you have Him in your life! Without question this was a fix from God.
I don’t know why I still have CRPS and why God hasn’t healed my body of it! I know that’s one of the questions going through your head as you read this. I do know however that there is a powerful testimony in all that my family and I have had to go through over the last ten years. God is the one who decides when things happen and what gets done.
Psalm 27:13 “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord”
I don’t have all the answers because if I did then I’d be God wouldn’t I! Why I have to go through so much I have no idea but I know that God is using it in a really powerful way! Without God in all this my life spins out of control! He gives me the strength to move on and do amazing things within my life.
Psalm 62:2 ” Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken
Like I said to you before I can’t make the decisions for you, at the same time I’m not going to shy away from telling you about the importance of what He can do if you have Him in your life. This is a conversation between you and God so I’d urge you to look at where your at! Are you battling a chronic illness or CRPS and have nobody to turn to? If you are then God is listening all you need to do is take the next step!