Standing Back Up!

Today I wanted to write something to encourage all of you out there who are struggling right now with your diagnosis. It might seem as if your world is spinning out of control and you might be asking yourself what do I do now! I want you to ask yourself a question. Are you happy? When I saw this video I said to myself its a perfect fit for what I want to talk about because it really says it all! Through all the pain, anger, and fear you need to get back up and fight. In some cases it isn’t going to be easy but with Gods guidance anything is possible! As the video says allow your heart to start beating again! Take baby steps one foot in front of the other and you can get there!

A word of advice! I really wanted to figure out where this journey was taking me but understand now I just needed to take the ride. I’ve turned that over to God and it’s brought peace in my life. I’m learning that bit by bit Gods greater plan is unfolding for my life. Sometimes the battle to get your mind and body back in the game, is tougher than facing the illness itself. When we get sick we just want everything to go back to the way it was. We tend to focus on the way things were and it can be really easy to become bitter and angry because we can’t have our old life back! Have you stopped to think for a minute that maybe this journey your on is for a reason. Maybe God has a plan for your life with bigger and better things but first you have to walk through some really tough things!

To often we listen to all those tiny voices that we hear in our head and it stops us from shifting the car from park into drive! I’m often reminded of all those episodes of the Flintstones I used to watch as a kid. If you don’t remember it then it was a cartoon set in the Stone Ages. The cars they drove in the cartoon were foot powered, and Barney and Fred would constantly forget to move their feet to get the car going. The running joke was why isn’t the car going anywhere. So the parallel I’m trying to make is that you have to keep your feet moving, if you want to stop yourself from getting stuck in the mud.

It might take some time to figure things out but don’t believe for a minute that your stuck where your at! You can’t be scared of running up against obstacles, or the times of frustration that you will run up against while on this journey. Look for the lesson from within each of those challenges, and if there is one learn and grow from them if you can. Some of those hard times that you face as you walk this journey might just change how you think about things from the past. Or it might open your eyes to new things that you never thought possible. Never in a million years did I see myself organizing a CRPS Awareness Day in our province and taking a roll in advocacy the way that I am. That being said I couldn’t feel better about what I am doing and the small roll I’m playing in trying to raise awareness. Advocacy has fueled a fire in me that wasn’t there before. Its fire to help people in whatever ways I can.

I’m not trying to tell you what to do in your situation. Absolutely not! I’m just trying to point out that there are things in my own life over the last ten years, that I’ve had to work on that I didn’t see coming. Ones that are taking me down a different road and as this happens I’m seeing happiness return. Do I know your situation? No! Can I relate to your situation? Yes! I do know that if I had stayed the way I was ten years ago then I wouldn’t be happy. I wouldn’t for a minute think of trying to tell another person what to do with there life and I never will. What I will do however is share my story with others and encourage. I really believe that when we support each other in these ways that we gain perspective. What you choose to do with that is your choice!

This is a simple message that I’ve given on more than one occasion but I think its important to keep giving. Its important because if I don’t remind myself personally every once in a while of these things, then I become stuck or my vision can become clouded. So I would hope that you see things in the same way. If your reading this today I hope it helps shed some light on questions you might have in your own journey!

 

 

 

 

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Starting A New Chapter!

imageChanges are in the works! Over the last couple of weeks I’ve been looking at how I can make some changes to this blog for the better! Don’t worry! If you read my blog on a regular basis the guts of the blog will be almost the same but I will be changing the layout and adding some other things to the site. There are a few reasons I want to make some changes but I also want to update its look. I know I’ve been saying that I’d do this for a while now but it just hasn’t been high on the to do list!

If you have any suggestions of what you would like to see on my site then please drop me a line at ross@painfullyoptomistic.com and maybe I will consider it. I just really feel that change has to happen and that if I’m going to do my job as an advocate for CRPS and chronic pain then I have to change a few things around. In doing so it benefits you the reader. Not only will it keep you informed about this journey I am on but I will try to provide you with resources and other information as well.

Over the last year I have been surrounding myself with others with chronic illness who are firmly entrenched in advocacy and have an abundance of information at their fingertips. I’ve been sitting back wanting to make changes with my site but just didn’t know what those changes were going to look like. When people come to this blog I don’t want it to read like a medical journal. If a person is newly diagnosed I want them to not only relate to my illness and know that they are not alone, but know they can come to this site for information as well!

imageIf you follow my blog because you want to follow my journey then your in luck because that will always be included in this site. Its why I started this site and will always be the building block of this site. I’m just looking at ways that I can freshen things up and widen the range of people that my site reaches. Its hard to believe that its been ten years since diagnosis and six years that I’ve been writing this blog. Over that time there have been over 400 posts put up expressing every emotion under the sun. It’s gone through all the different chapters that I’ve been through on this journey with CRPS!

Its been a long journey to this point and I feel as though a new chapter is starting. When I look back at those first posts I see a person who was scared and unsure of what lay down the road. Today even though I still fight intense pain and battle this disease, I’m filled with confidence and know that God has a plan and purpose in all this for my life. I feel as though that next chapter is starting and even though I’m still not sure about the contents that will make up that chapter I’m starting to move ahead anyway. I’m just standing in belief that God is going to show me what that content is going to be.

What I do know is that there has been this shift within me and I want that to start coming out more in my writing. It doesn’t mean that I won’t be real with what I write and tell you about how I’m struggling or feeling on any given day but it does mean that I want to shift how I write a bit as well. I’m still trying to figure all of this out and so please have a little bit of patience if every so often my posts seem a bit scattered. I guess what I really want to say is that if I want this blog to accurately reflect the journey that I’m on and that again requires some change.

When I started this blog back in 2010 my goal and focus at that time was really to just get my emotions out. It was a way for me to express how I was feeling at the time and was a creative outlet to help me. Today it has become so much more than that! Its become a way to share my story and hopefully help others navigate through their storms. Most of all though I want people to see that in ten years of dealing with this illness one person has been responsible for getting me through it. God!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Who’s Helping You?

It feels good today to sit down in front of this keyboard and write! Too often brain fog makes it really hard to put together a post as many of you know! With two young kids I also have to reserve some of the energy that I have for them. Lately however I’ve felt as if I really need to put some focus back on writing because I have a lot to say! So much has changed in the last few months and I really believe that we are on the verge of seeing some big changes happen in regards to CRPS!

Some exciting news on the front right here at home is that CRPS Awareness Day has been approved here in Saskatchewan and we are in the middle of working out details for the event that will take place here in Regina, SK on Nov.2, 2016! This is big news because for the first time those of us suffering from CRPS will be heard by dignitaries from within the government and medical communities. So keep coming back as I will be posting about things as we confirm plans! The goal in all this is to raise awareness and make people understand that we need resources and research to help those of us in need.

It isn’t often that I can say I feel good because most days are a struggle to get through. Ten years has had its toll on my body but like a Timex watch I keep ticking! Today I have to say that I feel alright and like I can take on most of the challenges put in front of me. For that I thank God! Without his guidance through all of this I wouldn’t have the strength or energy to keep going. When I started planning out today’s post I just kept hearing that it needed to be one that struck a cord with people! So this is the point at which you can either stop reading or carry on reading.

It isn’t often that I preach but today that’s exactly what I’m going to do. In ten years of dealing with CRPS numerous times I have needed Gods help and not often enough do I talk about how important He is in all of this. I get asked almost daily “how do you do it” or “what gets you through every day”. God gets me through every day! Whatever my concern I always rely on God because I don’t have any doubt in my mind that He will provide in whatever way I need Him to.

I don’t need to get into all the specifics that I’ve had to go through as I’ve walked through this journey. What I will say is this! Several times that I have faced adversity I have felt overwhelmed and alone. Sure I have family and friends supporting me but what I mean is that I felt alone in taking on this beast called CRPS. Family and friends can only offer so much support. My mind was being bombarded with questions that I quite simply didn’t have the answers to nor did anyone else! When I started asking God to help me with all the fear and questions, things started to change inside of me. Bottom line is that I got answers because I trusted Him for those answers. You just have to trust and believe that He will be there.

Psalm 46:1  “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble”

The single most important person in my life before anyone else is God. I stand by that and always will. Am I going to tell you that you need God in your life? Yes but I can’t be the person who makes that decision for you. I can share with you the things that He’s done in my life, that have changed and shaped me into who I am today. I might still be sick with my CRPS and look physically broken on the outside. However on the inside there is this strength and determination that has replaced the fear and uncertainty that used to exist. That is what God can do for you if you have Him in your life! Without question this was a fix from God.

I don’t know why I still have CRPS and why God hasn’t healed my body of it! I know that’s one of the questions going through your head as you read this. I do know however that there is a powerful testimony in all that my family and I have had to go through over the last ten years. God is the one who decides when things happen and what gets done.

Psalm 27:13 “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord”

I don’t have all the answers because if I did then I’d be God wouldn’t I! Why I have to go through so much I have no idea but I know that God is using it in a really powerful way! Without God in all this my life spins out of control! He gives me the strength to move on and do amazing things within my life.

Psalm 62:2 ” Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken

Like I said to you before I can’t make the decisions for you, at the same time I’m not going to shy away from telling you about the importance of what He can do if you have Him in your life. This is a conversation between you and God so I’d urge you to look at where your at! Are you battling a chronic illness or CRPS and have nobody to turn to? If you are then God is listening all you need to do is take the next step!

 

 

 

 

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Chronic Friendships!

It seems like forever since I’ve put up a post! Probably because it has been forever and I have to say I’m not proud of the fact that I haven’t found a way to make time. This blog is more than just putting words down to express myself along with the experiences that I’ve had to live through. There’s a relationship that’s been established with some of you out there and it means a lot and always will! As I’ve walked through this journey over the last ten years, I’ve realized that I’ve gained some amazing friendships along the way. Its made everything just a bit easier to manage over that period of time.

First let me just say this! The support I get from family and friends is simply amazing! Since day one my family has been there for me in taking on this giant of a disease called CRPS and for that I am extremely blessed. God has placed so many good people around me and for that there are no words. I wish I knew what to say to each and every one of you because the love and support you show me day in day out through this journey means the world to me!

Over the past few weeks things have been really tough physically for me, not to mention just how exhausting its been mentally! My pain hasn’t been easy to control and there have been all sorts of times where I could have just as easily given up.  That’s when my extended family as I like to sometimes call them steps up to the plate to help. These are friendships that have been established in the chronic world with others who are chronically ill. Without fail they support me and I’m right there for them when they need me. We are a support system for each other that doesn’t judge but rather tries to listen to one other and motivate each other through all levels of adversity. When things get tough we push each other to get through what seems to be the impossible!

Sometimes you just need that support around you from people who are going through the same things as you are! When you make friendships within the chronic world there’s this common bond that you share with one another, and so right away you can identify with one another. I don’t think there is any need to explain what that common bond is! There’s no need to validate yourself or everything your going through, unlike when your trying to talk to someone who is healthy. Borders and boundaries that often stand in the way come down and it can be easier to open up to one another. You share in each others victories and support each other through the adversity.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve found myself discouraged and one of those friends shows up in my inbox with a kind word of encouragement. Or a text that inspires me to push through a day where the pain is super intense and I’m getting down on myself. What sets these friendships apart from others is in the ability to understand what each other is going through so very well. There are so many shared experiences in living and dealing with our chronic illnesses. Even when the illnesses are different there is still that common thread in what we’ve experienced, or what we have to walk through on a daily basis.

When I started this journey of mine ten years ago I never knew how important this community of friends was going to be. They motivate and inspire me to see past the roadblocks and barriers within my disability, and instead see that I can make so much more out of my life. So I want to take a moment to say ” Thank You” to any of you who have played a roll in any way. You have lit a fire under me to pursue advocacy for my illness CRPS, and chronic illness in general. 

Today I want to mention four individuals who I think we need to recognize for their leadership that they display within the chronic community. I want you to know that you are true leaders and that the tireless work that you do in raising awareness, breaking down barriers, or even helping others through their journey’s leaves me with no words! You are all very unique individuals that have been given amazing gifts to do great things with in your lives! I want to recognize you not only because of the amazing work that you do within your communities but around your country. You lead by example and when push comes to shove you are in the trenches fighting with all your heart and soul.

So those four individuals are Julie Cerrone ( itsjustabadday.com), Britt ( thehurtblogger.com), Anna Evangeline (sixhipsandcounting.com ), and Charles Mattocks ( charlesmattocks.com ). If you have a chance drop by their sites and get to know them a bit better then please do!

I could speak about each of these people and not run short of things to say about who they are and what they do for chronic illness. I’m also quite sure that there would be many who would back me in making this statement. I could get into each of their stories but that in itself is an entire post on each of them. Their experiences and own personal journey’s are amazing and will inspire you!

In closing I just want to say this! If you are fighting a battle with a chronic illness and have nobody to talk to then look around you and reach out to someone like me or one of the others I’ve listed above and we can connect you! You should not have to go through your illness on your own. Never say that there isn’t support because its right around the corner. You need to fight and be that person who never lets their disability stop them from accomplishing the hopes and dreams that they have in life!


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Chronic Illness And Narcotics

Today’s post is one that I have spoken about in the past but will speak towards it again because of its importance. Without the complex cocktail of prescription drugs or opioids, I couldn’t imagine how much worse my pain would be. With my diagnosis of CRPS there is NO CURE! There are few treatments at this time but the most effective in giving me quality of life is a combination  stimulator/opioid treatment plan. There is one other called a Ketamine Infusion much like a chemo treatment which some people find successful in reducing the pain they suffer from. Without these pain management plans quality of life is reduced! My treatment plan is a drug plan that’s administered very carefully and watched by a team of people being checked monthly if not more!

So why am I going on about my drug treatment plan? The reason quite simply is that some people want to refer to those of us who are chronically ill as addicts. There’s this stereotype that comes with being chronically ill, and everywhere you go it follows you. Most recently during a Super Bowl commercial https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X276jp-vvRY and comments made by comedian Bill Maher! I can’t and won’t try to tell you how many times that people have made this reference to those of us who are sick. If you want to read his comments I’ll leave you to search for them on Twitter. My illness has no cure! Am I suppose to stop living life just because of that! The medications help me with basic daily functions and if they are managed well can be a benefit and not a detriment to the quality of my daily life. Unless there’s a cure then this is my only form of for treatment.

The stigma out there is that we as sufferers of chronic illness abuse the drugs we take or have become addicts. This perception I think is caused in large because you will often see us changing drugs or taking combinations to see what works best to relieve our pain. We often take large dosages because that is what it takes to control the pain. Instead however too often we are looked at as someone who abuses. Some combinations just don’t work with CRPS pain, and so doctors will change drugs to see if something else will work to give us some relief. Changing medications will often cause others to think we are hopping from drug to drug. I shouldn’t have to make excuses for taking medications that I need to reduce my pain! So I challenge all of those out there who have this perception to really look into why we take the medications that we do. Don’t be so quick to label me because I guarantee you that if we had a choice, we wouldn’t want to be taking any of these medications at all!

With the proper use of my medications it allows for me to be a voice and to advocate for a cure to CRPS through this blog and other avenues. If I wasn’t controlling my pain through opioids then I wouldn’t be able to advocate for my chronic illness like I do. Its time to stop lumping us into the category of abusers and see us for what we really are. Some of my fellow advocates are doing amazing things to raise awareness, and providing other sufferers of chronic illness with support and so much more. Without their specific drug treatment plans those things wouldn’t be possible. Yes I’m chronically ill and its bad enough that I have to live with this debilitating disease called CRPS but I won’t be called things like a junkie, abuser, or addict when I have no other choices for treatment! I’m doing the best that I can do and it wasn’t my choice to become ill. So having to apologize for the treatment that helps me to be an active member of society is just adding salt to the wound. Please help to stop the stigma that has been built up around us! More importantly help us find the cures!

 

 

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What is your roll?

Happy New Years everyone! I know we are a couple of weeks in already! Last year is finally behind us and I’m looking forward to a fresh start in 2016!! As most of you are recovering from the stresses of the last month I’m looking forward into the year optimistic for great things to happen. I truly believe that this is going to be a year of big changes within the chronic world. For anyone wanting a look into the CRPS world, a new movie called Trial by Fire by Charles Mattocks is coming to an independent theatre near you. Hopefully this will open a few eyes as to what my world can be like at times! For a trailer of the movie go to http://www.trialbyfiremovie.com/.

Closer to home in the last few months I have taken the steps of writing emails to both our Premiere and our Health Minister. Why? I want changes to start happening in the medical community and within all levels of government so that chronic illness is seen for what it really is. For most of last year I’ve been thinking about various ways that I could do my little part. How can I do my little piece in bringing about change in perception and treatment, in those of us living with chronic illness. Sometimes you can overthink the answers that are right there in front of you. None of us would wish what we go through on a daily basis on anyone else right. We come up with all these great ideas of how we want to see and create change but that’s all they are most of the time is ideas. We never do anything about them because it requires putting ourselves out there and then it becomes too real!

So a while ago I decided I was tired of not putting myself out there. I made the decision I was going to take baby steps , and open myself up to taking different risks and seeing how they all play out. Its much like a relationship with God you have to open yourself up and make yourself vulnerable if you want to see change in your life. CRPS may have tried to steal a lot of different thing from me but I can use those things in so many positive ways. I don’t want to sit around and watch life pass me by because I know God has challenged me to do amazing things with the life He has given me. Are you willing to step over the line and take that same risk?

So I decided to start with something simple and wrote two emails. The first was one that went to the Premiere of our province explaining what my life had been like living with a chronic illness along with concerns within our health care system. Except I multiplied that by the thousands of us out there who live chronic lives, asking him to make Nov.2 a CRPS and Chronic Illness Day here in our province. Several weeks went by and I hadn’t received any type of a response.Then one day I opened up my email and there was a letter from the Premiere saying that he would pass it on to the Minister of Health. A few months had gone by and I had received no response from the Minister of Health so at that point I decided I had nothing to lose so I took steps once again and wrote another email.

Two days before Christmas I opened my email and to my surprise it was an email explaining that my request was going to be put forward in legislation, making Nov. 2, 2016 CRPS & Chronic Illness Day here in our province of Saskatchewan. It gives me hope and I was encouraged that if I could write a letter and receive a positive response like this, then what else can I do to create change or make a difference. Doing my small part is going to help the greater cause and no part is insignificant! What I’m trying to say is look at what you can do and not what you can’t do.

It takes an army to win a war and every person in that army has a roll to play. Think about an army of ants, each ant has a specific job that they have to carry out. They work together towards reaching and obtaining a goal like getting food or building their home. There are a million different examples that I could provide you but the point is that we can’t obtain our goals unless we work together in getting there. What does your little roll look like? Maybe its something as simple as sharing your story with someone who needs to be encouraged! Or maybe its taking on a greater roll within advocacy? So I challenge you to look at where you are at right now in this moment. Ask yourself what can I do to make a difference? If your having trouble trying to figure everything out then have a conversation with God because nobody knows you better and can provide some of the answers that you are looking for.

 

 

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Checking your Chronic Illness Gas Tank!

Its been one of those weeks where the needle on my gas tank has been running on empty! My pain level has been hard to manage and its taking everything within me to get through every day. Some days it feels as though I wake up and I just don’t have anything in me to give. I ask myself how I’m going to find the energy I need to get through that day. This is a fight I live day by day and some days are easier than others. Sometimes my tank is running on empty and others its full and getting great mileage. So like when you get into your car to go to work, I often find myself checking my gas tank to see if it needs filling.

Chronic illness can suck your tank dry and so you need to be checking the gas tank on a regular basis. I check mine every morning and for me that means having a conversation with God asking him to fill my tank. The last thing I want to do is run out of gas! For anyone battling CRPS or any other chronic illness you know that this can happen very quickly. Over the holidays I’ve had to fill my tank numerous times but by having that five minute conversation with God every morning I ensures that I never run out.

Its more than just checking to see if I have enough gas in the tank. There are other things that I need to check out with my car. Every so often you get the oil changed and you check the belts and all the other fluid levels. So I have to do the same thing with my chronic illness and check to make sure I’m putting all my different tools I use in order to manage my pain into place. I make sure that I add anything else that I might need to into that conversation I have with God. So maybe every once in a while that conversation with God is a little longer than five minutes.

As well as an oil change you have to have things like tune-ups and tires rotated in order to keep the car operating at its best. Doing all these things are all a part of a regular maintenance plan for your car. With your illness you have to make sure your doing the same things. You always hear mechanics saying that if you do the preventative maintenance then your car will run longer and last longer. Well the same holds true with your chronic illness. If you follow the plan your physician has set out for you it will make things more manageable in most cases. That’s not to say that you might have periods where things are difficult. It gives you the best chance at managing your illness more effectively and with as few symptoms as possible.

It can be so easy just to drive our cars into the ground not doing the things we need to do to maintain them! There are so many different ways that we can stay on top of the maintenance, yet that’s easier said than done. When your hurting all the time and all you do is spend time fighting your illness, it can be easy to forget those things you need to be doing on a regular basis. That’s why checking in with my mechanic (God) every day helps to keep everything running the way it should. Especially around this time of the year when it can be so easy for my body to break down!

I’m looking forward to the New Year and a much better year with my health. Looking back this last year was extremely tough both physically and mentally! If it wasn’t for those constant conversations with God to get through it all, my bolts would have rattled loose and my car would have started to break down. I wasn’t anticipating that it would take this long! Like when you have to rebuild a car engine I have to rebuild my body and that doesn’t happen overnight! I’ve had a great mechanic that’s been able to make sure all the parts are in place, and all the fluids are full. I’d highly recommend this mechanic because He does great work!

 

 

 

 

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A Chronic Christmas!

The first thing I want to pass on to everyone is a big Merry Christmas! In the next few hours I’ll be headed out to the lake where it truly is a winter wonderland, to celebrate Christmas with all our family which are too many to count. I also hope that all of you are getting through this holiday season without too much pain. This is that time of the year where things get a bit crazy in the chronic world! Schedules get crazy busy and stress levels increase causing lots of extra pain. It can be a time of the year that spoonies just want to forget because its such a taxing time on your body! Christmas in the chronic world can be filled with so much pain and suffering!

Honestly I struggled with what type of a post to put together because usually I put together one that speaks towards how to get through the Christmas season! I felt it was more important to put together a message with hope and encouragement, especially at this time of the year when people are feeling so discouraged. I get it because I’ve been living it! I’ve had those moments when you just want Christmas to be over, and your just barely hanging on for dear life. I understand just how much strength and determination it takes to battle through Christmas with all the extra stress.

When it comes to a message I wanted to keep it simple, and I’ll be open and honest. Like I’ve said before I put my life in Gods hands and let him shoulder everything in my life. So the key for me is allowing God to be the driver in my life. When things get hard I turn to Him! When I feel alone in this fight I turn to Him! When I think that I just can’t carry on this fight I turn to Him! See its pretty straight forward isn’t it! Yes absolutely there are things I have to do during the Christmas season to make things just a bit easier to live with my chronic illness. However only God can provide all our needs and you have to be willing to trust Him with your life! So at Christmas I trust Him all the more when things get difficult. Do you? Merry Christmas everyone!

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Stronger! Happier! Wiser!

Hi again! Christmas is right around the corner and it’s coming quickly! It’s the time of year that is so difficult for so many of us! Why? It’s taxing on our nervous systems and we have a hard time keeping the stress levels down or the triggers that set off our pain. So let me just say this! If you have a friend or a family member that deals with CRPS or chronic illness, keep in mind that this might not be an easy time of the year for them. I feel as though this has become a message that I try to speak to every year because it’s important! We are trying and want to enjoy this time of the year but it just isn’t easy for us.  So I guess I’m saying be patient and supportive of those around you.

The last week has been full of lots of ups and downs on the pain front, and I’m doing what I can not to fall apart. Like every other day however I battle through and get stronger with every passing day. My illness might be holding me back in a physical sense but I know that from the inside out I’m only getting stronger, smarter, and wiser. I have been affected by CRPS for ten years now and in so many ways its forced me to become stronger. Why? If I’m not stronger in how I battle through each day then slowly the illness breaks you down and over time it could lead to depression or worse yet suicide. So every day I wake up and the first then I do is ask God to give me the strength because I don’t know where else I would get it from. Not only the physical strength to get through every day but the mental strength as well.

As I’ve walked this journey I’ve also become a lot happier because I’ve been able to learn from all the struggles that I’ve had to go through. Lets face it over the time that I’ve had to live with CRPS there have been more than a few ups and downs. There were days where the journey seemed all too much, and trials that have felt nearly impossible to live through making it hard to be happy at times. There were certain times I took on a defeatist attitude and chose to go to a negative place, believing that happiness wasn’t going to be possible. When I really think about it, those beliefs were coming from a place of fear. One in which I probably chose to shut God out sometimes because it was easier to give up and feel sorry for myself, than to trust that He could bring a renewed strength, happiness, and wisdom when I needed it. If I wanted to change this and stop it from happening, then I needed to have an even stronger “all in” attitude and trust that He would provide! Its taken time and a continued effort but slowly I’ve started to see things change. There is a peace I didn’t have before and I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time.

I’ve been fighting this war against CRPS far to long not to know that there might be other trials I come up against down the road. The difference is that I am prepared to face them if need be! My confidence is stronger and I have become so much wiser to Gods promises in my life. Its taken a lot of hard work to get to where I’m at today. Putting in the effort to learn about my CRPS and how to manage to live a “happy life” with my disability hasn’t been exactly easy. Sometimes it’s taken falling down and getting back up to learn how to cope and manage but I’m all the wiser for it. There have been so many hard and sometimes painful lessons that I’ve had to go through. All of them in their own little way however have helped me to open my eyes and see things in a different light.

Living a chronic life hasn’t been easy but its changed me for the better! I say this because in a lot of ways I appreciate life way more now more than I ever did before!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Chronic Pain & Narcotics

Sorry about the delay once again in getting a post up but last month was crazy as we tried to get back to life as normal. The kids were back in school along with all the other things that come with being a parent. It’s pushed my body to the max with my CRPS and so I just didn’t put anything together for the blog. The past week or two I’ve also been dealing with a cold that doesn’t want to go away. This time of year is hard for anyone dealing with chronic illness. Why? Most of us deal with immune systems that are compromised and so we catch anything and everything that’s going around! As you read through my latest post also enjoy some more of my pictures

Today I wanted to talk about something that I’ve been talking about a lot in recent weeks in my chronic pain circles. It has to do with the medications we take and the stigma around those of us who take narcotics and other prescription drugs. It’s a subject that walks a really fine line and I can see argument on both the patient side and the health systems side. A very high percentage of patients who suffer from chronic illness are talking narcotics as part of pain management programs designed by either their doctor or specialist. A vast majority of these patients will be on these medications for most of their life, unless a cure is found for the specific illness they suffer from. As a result patients will then have to visit the Dr. on a regular basis to refill their perscriptions. In Canada in the province that I live, my doctor is required by law to refill my perscriptions every 30 days when I am on my last dose. He is not allowed to write a perscription for any longer or any sooner for that matter.

With doctors booking several weeks out it can be a big problem to refill your perscriptions. For the most part I can schedule my appointments one month out, but occasionally for various reasons I’m forced to cancel. The problem comes in that I often have to fight with the office in order to try and get back in to renew my prescriptions. As with most narcotics if you miss even one dose, your body can start showing symptoms of withdraw.  With all my other medications my physician can write my prescriptions for three months and then follow up with me. Why not the narcotics as well? I understand all the laws and regulations that the doctors have to follow, and not for a minute do I blame them because they are doing what the law and Board of Physicans requires of them. This is where the governing bodies that make all laws and regulations that physicians have to adhere to, need to listen to the patient and regulate with the chronically ill patient in mind. I’m not saying that we don’t have to have strict regulations for narcotics because we do. In order to prevent abuse of prescription drugs we absolutely do. However there needs to be a better process for those of us who are taking narcotics or other prescription drugs long term.

Patients suffering from a chronic illness also face the constant stigma of being made to feel as though they are addicts. If you took a survey of chronically ill patients and asked them about their experiences when it comes to refilling their perscriptions, I’m sure they’d tell you that that they were made to feel as if they were an addict. I realize that this is more of an issue of how the physician treats the patient, but the regulations around the refilling of prescriptions don’t help. I’ve been on my meds for ten years and will be for the rest of my life unless they find a cure for CRPS. What I would give to not have to take a handful of pills every day! I don’t need to add to all I’m going through by being made out to feel as if I am an addict. Not that my physician is like that because he isn’t but I speak for all the others that are being made to feel that way. In order to have quality of life and to be able to function my body is dependant upon a carefully designed pain management plan that uses narcotics and other perscription drugs.

My question is this! Can the patient be monitered in such a way that they don’t feel as if they are labelled the minute they walk into the physicians office?

 

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