It’s been a few days since I last posted but I’ve been feeling the need to take a little break. I haven’t been feeling very good lately and some of the symptoms from the CRPS have been flaring up as of late. Today I will make a trip into the hospital and get a trigger point injection to try and get rid of the pain at one of the incision sites in my back. The good news is that it looks like we caught the infection before it went any further. I try not to think about what could have happened if it had traveled into my spine. However we will still have to watch it given the set of circumstances that I’m dealing with.

My body today is feeling tired and worn out. Why? After six years of doctors, procedures, operations, and just having to deal with CRPS day after day my body isn’t very happy! If you deal with chronic pain or CRPS then you know exactly what I’m talking about. It doesn’t mean I’m giving up, it just means that every once and a while my body needs a break, and I need to slow things down and rest a bit. That means trying to write a blog post every two days can be hard, so every now and then I have to take a break. If I look back at what my body have been through during all those years it amazes me how I keep going. To that I owe God thanks!

Although my body feels like it does I know that mentally and physically I’ve come a long way since that time. I just continue to leave all of this in God’s hands! When does this all end? What more do I have to go through? Those are questions that I’ve left for God to answer. My job is to just keep going and make the most out of my life, not worrying about all the what if’s or questions that CRPS has caused. If there has been one very important lesson that I’ve been able to learn in all of this it’s that I can have an amazing life in spite of what has happened. I have just given all those questions over to God and allow Him to do the worrying and figuring out!

I’m not going to wait around for life to come to me, if I do that I may be waiting a really long time. I’m going to go after life! If that means that I have to change a few of the ways I do things then so be it! I might have moments where things are really hard but you need to know that they will pass. So where am I going with all of this? When all of this happened, I had to go through a time of grief in dealing with all of this. I was angry that all my hopes and dreams had been taken away. Then over time the clouds started to part and I started to see that they weren’t taken away, but it was how I was going to get to them that was the problem. If I deal with the how part of the question then I can fulfill my every dream.