Reflecting Back!!

It’s been a really difficult week around my parts and trying to put a post together hasn’t been easy! I tried putting together a post last week but every time I tried to get the fingers moving on the keyboard my brain went into shutdown because of everything going on right now. We are putting the final push on to get our basement finished and let me tell you I’ll be doing a happy dance when the furniture comes back in a week or two. To add to all of that stress at the beginning of last week I witnessed a pedestrian get hit and killed by a bus last week.

So to say that my stress has been increased over the last few days is an understatement! I keep thinking about the family that has been affected, and the bus driver who now has to deal with all of this as well. I tried to do what I could to help the pedestrian along with someone else who had stopped but there wasn’t much we could do but wait for the ambulance to arrive. What I could do however was pray for the pedestrian! It was a long day filled with all kinds of emotion and it reminded me about how quickly life can change!

I’m now on day three of trying to put this post together and things just aren’t happening. I’m having a lot of trouble putting my thoughts together and I know a lot of that is due to all the stress. So I’ll say sorry ahead of time if this post doesn’t flow the way I’d like it to. It’s taking me a bit to work through everything that happened but slowly I’m proccessing the whole thing! While I’ve been working through all of this it caused me to think about how lives get affected by crisis, and when I think back to my own time of crisis a whole lot of emotions come flowing back.

It’s been almost eight years since I was diagnosed with my CRPS, and when I think about all the different ways in which our family has been affected my mind starts spinning out of control. So my heart goes out to the family of the pedestrian because their world has been turned upside down this week and all you can do is ask God for strength to get you through the storm that never seems to end. In a lot of ways I can relate to how that family is feeling at this moment. You just want things back the way they were. Everything seems so sureal and you can’t believe the things that are happening.

At times you just want to wake up thinking that it’s all a bad dream, and that life will pick up where it left off. The reality however is that from that day forward things will be different. In the time that I’ve been dealing with my illness there has been a lot of change for our family, some good and some not so good but life continues on and we face our battles head on. I know this post doesn’t really go anywhere but I’m physically and mentally exhausted at the moment and when I’m feeling better I’ll write a post that makes more sense!

About Ross

My name is Ross and I want to welcome you to my site. I’m married to an amazing woman who is my best friend, and my soul mate all rolled up into one! I am the father of two very special girls who we adopted from China & Ethiopia. Together we make up one very multicultural family!

In 2006 my life was turned upside down when I was diagnosed with CRPS/RSD. It was the start of a journey I never could have expected, and one that I couldn’t fight without God. CRPS is a chronic pain disease and it started in my left hand. I lost mobility of my hand and started to experience pain unlike I ever could have imagined. Not to long after my left ankle became affected. I spent the better half of about a year not knowing what was going on in my body and traveling from doctor to doctor to find a diagnosis. As time went by I started learning more about CRPS and all its symptoms that it brings with it!

As I started to learn more about CRPS I felt the growing need to share the information I was learning with others and to raise more awareness. As well I want this to be a place where we can connect and support one another. So I would encourage you to contact me if you want.

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4 Responses to Reflecting Back!!

  1. Chris H says:

    Life sure does have it’s up’s and down’s. And there is nothing we can do about them either! Just ride it out, as you said.
    Seeing someone die in front of you! I had that happen a few months ago when a bus crashed into a huge tree behind our house.

    An old man died on the ground in front of me, while I held a young girl’s smashed leg for 30 minutes waiting for the ambulances to arrive. It takes time to get over something like that… weeks in fact.
    Hang in there, the memories will ease.

  2. Hi Ross. I’m sorry you’ve been so stressed. It’s one of the worst feelings I think because it makes it hard to stay present and be happy. My heart goes out to the family of the man who got hit by the bus too (and to the bus driver). What a terrible thing to witness. I hope you are feeling better soon. Thanks for stopping by my blog.


  3. lisa says:

    Oh Ross, what a horrific experience. I am so sorry you witnessed this.

    It is good to hear that your basement is almost all back together. It surely has been along haul for you, and I know how happy you are to see it finally close to being finished.

    Your days are tough enough, but with the experience you’ve just had, please do take extra good care of you.

    Keep that wonderful spirit up, my friend.

  4. bettyl says:

    It’s no wonder your brain isn’t concentrating on the blog. I have to agree that everyone’s life has been changed. Wow. I am praying for you and all those involved.

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