I know it’s been a while since my last post but life has been a bit crazy as of late! With summer coming to an end things are starting to get a bit crazy. At the same time however we are trying to squeeze in the last of the summer at our cottage on the lake. We don’t have an Internet connection out there so it’s a good break away from all the technology that fuels all of our lives these days. So if my posts are a little stretched out in between these days it’s because I’m out there enjoying the amazing scenery that God created for our viewing pleasure!
My pain is up and down these days and it’s been more frustrating as of late. I think what bothers me the most is that I can go to bed feeling good one day, but then wake up the next morning feeling like I’ve been run over by a train! Not that I’d know what that feels like but I can only imagine! The hard part is that if I have a rough night with little or no sleep, then I know exactly how the next day will be and how rough things are going to be. There is very little that I can do about it because relaxation therapy only works so well. What I do however is ask God for the strength to battle through that day!
Lately I’ve been relying on God a whole lot to get me through this battle that I’m fighting. When my implants were done there is no doubt in my mind that things have improved and that my pain is better managed. However this infection that I’ve been fighting since my last surgery about two months ago has been a real setback. I’m waiting to see if I need another surgery and mentally it’s been tough on everyone in my family. Each day I ask God for piece and understanding about what’s going, and without His guidance I’d be lost.
The added pressure as of late with starting up my photography business has also been hard, and physically some days I just don’t feel up to it. There are days that I feel like saying I can’t do this anymore! Yet there are days that it’s so rewarding and God blesses me to be able to do something that I love so much. So for that reason I keep working and fighting through all the hard times, knowing that God is right there with me.
If you haven’t already figured it out through reading my blog God is the most important person in my life. My challenges and obstacles that I have overcome during my illness have been because of Him, and it wouldn’t be right not to acknowledge that. People have posted comments to my site thanking me for inspiring them to push on through the fight. Well thank God because He gives me the strength and the direction to push on.
I just felt that this latest post needed to be real and true. When I started this blog I promised myself that I write only in those ways, and that I would stay true to who I am! I have friends in the blogging world that write on their sites in the same way and I admire them for not conforming to what people want to hear. On my blog you get who I am and how I’m feeling and that is never going to change!
Well I guess for the time being I’d better wrap things up. If your wondering about the pictures that I’ve put up through the post some are from my trip back home to Vancouver and other are from a shoot the other night. I’ll talk to you all soon!