Having A Bad Day!

I have to say I’m sorry about not staying on top of my posts the last week or two. There has been a lot going on, and I haven’t been feeling as good the last couple of days. Today the symptoms seem to be getting worse and so I’m trying to take things a little easier. Days like today are the ones I wish others not affected by CRPS or chronic pain could understand. I go through all this surgery to get relief from the pain and yet the beast rears its ugly head yet again!

Don’t get me wrong the neurosurgeon was pretty straight forward to tell me that I would still have my bad days, I would just have a little more control over them. It’s just that I’ve been doing much better, and then you get slapped in the face out of nowhere by the pain and symptoms that have changed your life over the last 6yrs. I’m in those trenches fighting a war that I refuse to lose. Over the last couple of days my ability to focus hasn’t been as good and so it’s been slowing me down.

Even trying to focus on my photography hasn’t been easy and I need to find a way to regain my motivation. So tonight I’m posting a few more pictures to inspire myself. It’s been snowing the last few days, and so it hasn’t been that easy to get around to take photos. So instead I had to dig into my archives. I’ve been spending a lot of time going through them recently so I hope you like these shots. The first shot was taken up at our family cottage on Vancouver Island.  There are such strong family memories associated with this place. I get homesick just thinking about it! I also included one that I took on a trip in northern Saskatchewan with a friend. The reflection off the pond was amazing however there was only time for one shot or be eaten alive by mosquitoes! I couldn’t resist the shot below of the kittens. I was on a walk and stumbled across them. I only hope the eagles never saw them!

As I spent time looking through all of my photos I was reminded of what I love about picking up my camera. It’s about looking at something and seeing the photo before you even pick up the camera, then making that shot come to life. Well I must have written the same line about three times over, and so I’m thinking that instead of getting to the point of frustration that I should probably just end this post. I hope to see you all in a few days when I’m feeling better

 

8 thoughts on “Having A Bad Day!”

  1. I am sorry to hear you are having some bad days, especially after some good days.
    The horrible thing about living with chronic pain is you have to somehow learn to take the good with the bad, and accept that this is how life will be (short of a miracle). In my opinion & experience, it doesn’t get easier either. I find though, I have learned to value the good days more and I feel blessed to have a husband who constantly reminds me that it’s OK to feel down or frustrated when your life has been turned upside down by chronic illness.
    Your photos were… WOW! I showed them to Michael and his response was the same. I love the first with the mini waterfall. The reflection in the second is so beautiful. Those kittens are so cute. Keep digging through your archives. I find even going through my photos to be very therapeutic, especially when I can’t get out or when I am in too much pain to find the motivation or inspiration to take photographs. (I also find looking at other photography blogs therapeutic). I feel blessed to have rediscovered my love of photography & to be learning skills from other bloggers. (I would love to get out as much as they do though)
    I do hope you have less days with so much pain and more days where it’s a little more manageable. Keep positive. I am praying for you 🙂

  2. I am so sorry you are not feeling well Ross. You sounded so good the last time I was here. I sure hope that you are feeling much, much better soon.

  3. I am sorry you are having a bad day. I always find that looking at my photos makes me feel better, even if it’s just a band-aid. I really love that second photo with the reflection!

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