Today is another one of those days. My pain level isn’t great, and the kids are driving us crazy. That’s what we have to expect though with a 3 and 6 yr old. I’ve been having a hard time the last couple of days pain wise and once again it limits the amount that I can do. Yesterday I spent a fare amount of time laying down in my bed because of the pain. On days like this the emotions come flooding back at how things have changed. It reminds me of the fight I’m in right now and how easily my emotions can change. Sometimes I really have a hard time with my disability, and I start thinking about the day my struggling will come to an end.
Lets face it when your having a bad day it’s easy to let you mind go back to that place that you don’t want it to. You start thinking about all the ways in which life has changed, and lets be honest you start thinking about all the things that effect you in negative ways.
It’s OK that the pain of what happened comes rushing back, because the chances are that it probably always will. It’s learning to harness that pain and turn it into something positive that takes time. There are so many ways in which you can make positive change in your life. Yes life is different, but why not live it to the fullest. We need to be able to focus our energy on the positive things that we have going for us and not what we can’t do. Someone I think that models this very well is Nick Vujicic.
When I look at how he lives his life, it motivates me to overcome my disability all the more. It’s OK that I have off days and I realize that, however I want to try and focus more on the positive things that I have going on in my life. Living life to its fullest and overcoming my obstacles is important to me. We may have things that come back from time to time that remind us of the past however we don’t have to let them effect us the way that they sometimes do. I think I need to do a better job of not letting those feelings effect me.
What’s very clear is the impact that God’s is having in Nick’s life. His ability to embrace his situation and things for the way they are, allowing God to be a catalyst for change in his life is evidence of this. We need to adopt this same type of attitude in order to live life to it’s fullest. Do you have the type of attitude that Nick displays? That attitude is because of the things that God has instilled in his life. I know that I have a pretty positive outlook on things however I also know that I have my times that I’m not so positive. Meaning sometimes I don’t necessarily let God do everything he can do. If you were to ask yourself today where you where at in reclaiming your life, what would you tell them?
All I can do is tell you about what I want out of my life, and hopefully it will inspire some of you out there that are suffering to look at things the same way. I’m not saying that things aren’t a challenge at the moment, because they most certainly are. I’m still in a stage where I’m learning to deal with my disability. Strangely enough as time is going by I’m becoming stronger. With God’s help I continue to work my way through this ordeal. There is so much to life that is out there for those of us with disabilities. I want to be able to say that I made the most out of my life. Things may not work out the way that I planned them however I can still make the most out of my life.