Who’s Helping You?

It feels good today to sit down in front of this keyboard and write! Too often brain fog makes it really hard to put together a post as many of you know! With two young kids I also have to reserve some of the energy that I have for them. Lately however I’ve felt as if I really need to put some focus back on writing because I have a lot to say! So much has changed in the last few months and I really believe that we are on the verge of seeing some big changes happen in regards to CRPS!

Some exciting news on the front right here at home is that CRPS Awareness Day has been approved here in Saskatchewan and we are in the middle of working out details for the event that will take place here in Regina, SK on Nov.2, 2016! This is big news because for the first time those of us suffering from CRPS will be heard by dignitaries from within the government and medical communities. So keep coming back as I will be posting about things as we confirm plans! The goal in all this is to raise awareness and make people understand that we need resources and research to help those of us in need.

It isn’t often that I can say I feel good because most days are a struggle to get through. Ten years has had its toll on my body but like a Timex watch I keep ticking! Today I have to say that I feel alright and like I can take on most of the challenges put in front of me. For that I thank God! Without his guidance through all of this I wouldn’t have the strength or energy to keep going. When I started planning out today’s post I just kept hearing that it needed to be one that struck a cord with people! So this is the point at which you can either stop reading or carry on reading.

It isn’t often that I preach but today that’s exactly what I’m going to do. In ten years of dealing with CRPS numerous times I have needed Gods help and not often enough do I talk about how important He is in all of this. I get asked almost daily “how do you do it” or “what gets you through every day”. God gets me through every day! Whatever my concern I always rely on God because I don’t have any doubt in my mind that He will provide in whatever way I need Him to.

I don’t need to get into all the specifics that I’ve had to go through as I’ve walked through this journey. What I will say is this! Several times that I have faced adversity I have felt overwhelmed and alone. Sure I have family and friends supporting me but what I mean is that I felt alone in taking on this beast called CRPS. Family and friends can only offer so much support. My mind was being bombarded with questions that I quite simply didn’t have the answers to nor did anyone else! When I started asking God to help me with all the fear and questions, things started to change inside of me. Bottom line is that I got answers because I trusted Him for those answers. You just have to trust and believe that He will be there.

Psalm 46:1  “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble”

The single most important person in my life before anyone else is God. I stand by that and always will. Am I going to tell you that you need God in your life? Yes but I can’t be the person who makes that decision for you. I can share with you the things that He’s done in my life, that have changed and shaped me into who I am today. I might still be sick with my CRPS and look physically broken on the outside. However on the inside there is this strength and determination that has replaced the fear and uncertainty that used to exist. That is what God can do for you if you have Him in your life! Without question this was a fix from God.

I don’t know why I still have CRPS and why God hasn’t healed my body of it! I know that’s one of the questions going through your head as you read this. I do know however that there is a powerful testimony in all that my family and I have had to go through over the last ten years. God is the one who decides when things happen and what gets done.

Psalm 27:13 “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord”

I don’t have all the answers because if I did then I’d be God wouldn’t I! Why I have to go through so much I have no idea but I know that God is using it in a really powerful way! Without God in all this my life spins out of control! He gives me the strength to move on and do amazing things within my life.

Psalm 62:2 ” Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken

Like I said to you before I can’t make the decisions for you, at the same time I’m not going to shy away from telling you about the importance of what He can do if you have Him in your life. This is a conversation between you and God so I’d urge you to look at where your at! Are you battling a chronic illness or CRPS and have nobody to turn to? If you are then God is listening all you need to do is take the next step!

 

 

 

 

Checking your Chronic Illness Gas Tank!

Its been one of those weeks where the needle on my gas tank has been running on empty! My pain level has been hard to manage and its taking everything within me to get through every day. Some days it feels as though I wake up and I just don’t have anything in me to give. I ask myself how I’m going to find the energy I need to get through that day. This is a fight I live day by day and some days are easier than others. Sometimes my tank is running on empty and others its full and getting great mileage. So like when you get into your car to go to work, I often find myself checking my gas tank to see if it needs filling.

Chronic illness can suck your tank dry and so you need to be checking the gas tank on a regular basis. I check mine every morning and for me that means having a conversation with God asking him to fill my tank. The last thing I want to do is run out of gas! For anyone battling CRPS or any other chronic illness you know that this can happen very quickly. Over the holidays I’ve had to fill my tank numerous times but by having that five minute conversation with God every morning I ensures that I never run out.

Its more than just checking to see if I have enough gas in the tank. There are other things that I need to check out with my car. Every so often you get the oil changed and you check the belts and all the other fluid levels. So I have to do the same thing with my chronic illness and check to make sure I’m putting all my different tools I use in order to manage my pain into place. I make sure that I add anything else that I might need to into that conversation I have with God. So maybe every once in a while that conversation with God is a little longer than five minutes.

As well as an oil change you have to have things like tune-ups and tires rotated in order to keep the car operating at its best. Doing all these things are all a part of a regular maintenance plan for your car. With your illness you have to make sure your doing the same things. You always hear mechanics saying that if you do the preventative maintenance then your car will run longer and last longer. Well the same holds true with your chronic illness. If you follow the plan your physician has set out for you it will make things more manageable in most cases. That’s not to say that you might have periods where things are difficult. It gives you the best chance at managing your illness more effectively and with as few symptoms as possible.

It can be so easy just to drive our cars into the ground not doing the things we need to do to maintain them! There are so many different ways that we can stay on top of the maintenance, yet that’s easier said than done. When your hurting all the time and all you do is spend time fighting your illness, it can be easy to forget those things you need to be doing on a regular basis. That’s why checking in with my mechanic (God) every day helps to keep everything running the way it should. Especially around this time of the year when it can be so easy for my body to break down!

I’m looking forward to the New Year and a much better year with my health. Looking back this last year was extremely tough both physically and mentally! If it wasn’t for those constant conversations with God to get through it all, my bolts would have rattled loose and my car would have started to break down. I wasn’t anticipating that it would take this long! Like when you have to rebuild a car engine I have to rebuild my body and that doesn’t happen overnight! I’ve had a great mechanic that’s been able to make sure all the parts are in place, and all the fluids are full. I’d highly recommend this mechanic because He does great work!