I’m Having a Tough Day!

Ohhh! The Pain!!!!

I’m having a tough day today! It’s one of those days where I could just crawl out of my own skin. I feel like my body is failing me today, and I really don’t know where my head is at today. For some of you reading this you would probably say that this was just a part of growing older. Well not in my world! I have a fire burning in my limbs affected by my CRPS, along with every other symptom that comes with it. Oh ya! Did I forget to mention that the pain is off the Richter scale as well. Don’t even think about touching my hand because you’ll end up peeling me off the roof.
 

 

Did you detect that today I might also be a bit on the irritable side. This isall part of the world that I have come to know. I’m not going to be happy every day, and I want people to see that it’s ok to have your bad days. Today is just one of those days where everything is to much! For those of you who don’t understand CRPS, have a little patience with us when you see that we are like this. Understand that my nervous system isn’t normal, and that right now things are spinning out of control. So when I’m short tempered or moody it might be because I’m having a bad day and that my nervous system is in overload. I just have to ask God to get those things under control.

It’s bad enough that I’m having a bad day all around, but the kids have also been fighting and when that happens it makes for a long day. I’m ready for a relaxing evening watching a good hockey game. If there is one good thing about my day today it’s that I get to watch my Vancouver Canucks play tonight. Yes! I’m a hockey fan and if something is going to bring a smile to my face tonight it’s watching the Canucks knock off Detroit! I’ve got a great big smile on my face already because Vancouver just scored to make it 1-0!!! Feeling better already!

In spite of hanging on by my finger nails tonight all is ok! I wish I could tell you that you aren’t going to have days like this when your fighting CRPS, but the truth is that your going to. I’d also be lying if I said that ever day was going to be easy. So yes if all of a sudden you feel a wave of emotion wash over you, and you feel the need to have a good cry let it happen. Some people will laugh at me when I say this but the truth is that we need that every now and then. This is an expression of our true emotions, so don’t be afraid to let that show.

Through all of this I’ve been able to learn things about myself, and I’m not afraid to let the real me show! There are going to be tough times where you just want to put on a brave face and suppress what’s really going on inside. Some people however think that it’s a weakness to show their emotions. I think that it takes a very strong person to show their true emotions, and not to be afraid of how others may perceive them. God created us to show our emotions! This is an area of my life where I think God has helped me to gain strength during all this.

It’s been a really long day and I’m done! On a positive note my Vancouver Canucks won the game 2-1. Things are looking up already!!!

About Ross

My name is Ross and I want to welcome you to my site. I'm married to an amazing woman who is my best friend, and my soul mate all rolled up into one! I am the father of two very special girls who we adopted from China & Ethiopia. Together we make up one very multicultural family! In 2006 my life was turned upside down when I was diagnosed with CRPS/RSD. It was the start of a journey I never could have expected, and one that I couldn't fight without God. CRPS is a chronic pain disease and it started in my left hand. I lost mobility of my hand and started to experience pain unlike I ever could have imagined. Not to long after my left ankle became affected. I spent the better half of about a year not knowing what was going on in my body and traveling from doctor to doctor to find a diagnosis. As time went by I started learning more about CRPS and all its symptoms that it brings with it! As I started to learn more about CRPS I felt the growing need to share the information I was learning with others and to raise more awareness. As well I want this to be a place where we can connect and support one another. So I would encourage you to contact me if you want.
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5 Responses to I’m Having a Tough Day!

  1. earlie says:

    Just keep your cool, don’t worry about tomorrow, just sit down, have a cup of coffee or tea(whichever you prefer) and play with your kids.
    Be better soon

  2. Amy says:

    I am praying for you Ross. I thought of 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 when I read your post.
    “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

    A hockey fan eh? I love hockey and miss it really badly. We cut our satellite off over a year ago and with it went the hockey. Hockey and football are about the only things I miss about television. Glad to hear your team won though!

  3. Sofia says:

    I felt the exact same way yesterday!! I’ve been having very sharp low back pain and to that add two crazy little boys bouncing off the wall…drove me insane! I had to hide in the bathroom for good 10 minutes to calm down!

    I hope you are feeling better today! BTW, you’ve been added to my cool people list! You are from VANCOUVER!! Love that city!!

  4. Kyria says:

    Man, I am sorry to hear it!!! That sucks!

    What I am talking about it the Canucks, OF COURSE. Hah, just kidding!

    My man is a Canadiens fan though, so when it comes down with it, I am going to have to side with him. SORRY!

    I hope your day/weekend gets better!

  5. Hummm were you reading my mind? I wrestled with tears today and fought them back. I am in my 6 month. I cannot even begin to think of 6 years. I can’t look into the future at all. that would bring tears, hysteria.
    I cannot imagine more pain and everything I have read says it increases. Good days, bad days, focusing on small joys no matter how small is what I am doing to cope. And the warm water of pool therapy. A life saver.

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