Back again! It’s been one heck of a week and my nervous system is taking one heck of a beating even with my implants! Last week we discovered that while the plumbing was being replaced in our house that the main sewer line coming into the house was going to have to be replaced as well. We were ok with that however what we weren’t bargaining for was the house full of concrete dust after breaking through the floor to get to the line. I was never expecting that dust would end up in every crack and cranny! Needless to say it’s added a little bit of stress to our lives. With any luck this will be over in the next couple of months.
As a result I’ve been pushing myself way to hard and am now paying the price for it. The other night was a night with next to no sleep at all because I couldn’t get my body to shut down in any way at all. My mind kept racing all night long with all the stress that this is adding and it was a harsh reminder of what life has become now that CRPS is a part of my life. I kept finding that as I tried to do everything possible to slow my brain down it only made things worse because I just added more stress on top of the stress that was already there. I’m taking everything in stride however and not letting it affect me mentally the way that I used to! That’s the big difference!
It is frustrating however that I lost all control to try and slow down my nervous system. Even putting tools that I’ve been learning along this journey sometimes don’t work and I have to keep telling myself that everything is ok! Never knowing when this will happen is the frustrating part of it all.
As well I continue to wait for a surgery date to move the battery for my implant. Not much has changed in the last week except even more chaos! When will it all end because I’d really like it to! Now it’s time to get on with the rest of my day and before I do that I have to go brush the concrete dust out of my teeth again!