The last little while things have been pretty busy and slowly but shurely things have been catching up with me. The last couple of days haven’t been good days and the pain has been harder to control. Things feel all wound up and ready to unravel. It’s like a locomotive that comes steaming down the tracks, and once it gets rolling it becomes extremely hard to stop. My pain has been slowly creeping up on me this week and for the first time in a long time things are bothering me more than normal, making it hard to stay focused on the task at hand.
I’m not going to let this bring me down or stop me from moving forward, but the cold harsh reality is that I’m dealing with a beast that rears it’s ugly head every once in a while. Today is just one of those days that’s hard to get through. I find my head focusing on pain, stress, and all the other symptoms that come with this nasty illness. Not only is it hard to keep it together for myself but it’s hard to not let it affect the rest of the family. Losing focus isn’t an option at the moment, because I’ve come to far and haven’t finished what I set out to do which is beat my CRPS!
It shakes me up though when I’m down in the trenches fighting this battle, and at times like these it can seem like a lonely fight. I try to hand all of it over to God but at times it isn’t that easy to do. It’s been a busy couple of weeks and I know I need to slow things down again and spend some time focusing on giving all of this to God. So because my head is a bit on the foggy side tonight I leave you with a video that really says all that I really want to say! Never give up! We can get through this storm together!