Finding Strength Through Weakness

Hi everyone! It’s been a few days since my last post and I’m sorry about that. I haven’t been feeling very good as I’ve been having lots of pain within my implant site. It’s taken everything within me mentally to stay in the game and stay focused. I have days like yesterday where my pain is off the charts, and days where I feel like a new man. I’m being told that everything that’s going on right now looks to be normal in the recovery of this type of surgery. As normal as that can be for a person living with CRPS!

At the moment it’s so hard to tell people where my true pain level is at because some of that pain is post surgery and part I’m sure is from the CRPS. Does it change my decision to do the surgery in the first place? Not at all! If I allow myself to become negative and frustrated though then I’m not going to win this battle that I’m working so hard to win. At the same time I think it’s important for people to see that this isn’t something that’s a simple thing to do. I think that it’s important to show people that I have my moments of weakness, or times where I have difficulty in coping not only with the pain but the stress caused by it all. If I didn’t show that then it wouldn’t be real!

Yesterday was one of those days where everything was getting to me. The pain was getting to me and the mental stress of everything was taking it’s tole on me as well. I believe that in times like that God shows us His awesome power and ability to show up in our time of need. After praying about this yesterday I feel better physically and feel like I’m back mentally again today. This isn’t just something that happens by chance. It has everything to do with me believing and trusting that when I ask for God’s help that He will provide.

 

When I look back at all the times that I have felt like I couldn’t take any more pain, or any more of the ups and downs of CRPS one thing stands out in my mind. Any time that I’ve needed God to be there for me in a time of need He has always been there. It may not be in the way that I expected or at that exact time, but He has always taken care of my every need!

 

About Ross

My name is Ross and I want to welcome you to my site. I'm married to an amazing woman who is my best friend, and my soul mate all rolled up into one! I am the father of two very special girls who we adopted from China & Ethiopia. Together we make up one very multicultural family! In 2006 my life was turned upside down when I was diagnosed with CRPS/RSD. It was the start of a journey I never could have expected, and one that I couldn't fight without God. CRPS is a chronic pain disease and it started in my left hand. I lost mobility of my hand and started to experience pain unlike I ever could have imagined. Not to long after my left ankle became affected. I spent the better half of about a year not knowing what was going on in my body and traveling from doctor to doctor to find a diagnosis. As time went by I started learning more about CRPS and all its symptoms that it brings with it! As I started to learn more about CRPS I felt the growing need to share the information I was learning with others and to raise more awareness. As well I want this to be a place where we can connect and support one another. So I would encourage you to contact me if you want.
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2 Responses to Finding Strength Through Weakness

  1. Amy says:

    God is so cool like that! I’m sorry I haven’t been around for a bit. It’s been a bit crazy over here. I have been praying for you and I am so pleased to hear that some days you feel like a new person. What a fantastic feeling that must be. Thanksgiving is this Thursday here in the states so it will be another wild week. Take comfort in the Lord and I will continue to keep you in my prayers!!

  2. Ross, we’re always inspired by the way you see beautiful and share it with others. Thanks for your motivational posts!

    happy seeing beautiful.

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